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Reiki Practitioner
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Ever since I received my
attunement as an Advanced Reiki Practitioner (Level 3) this past March, I have
truly felt a spiritual shift. I always
knew that I was sensitive to and absorbed the energies of others as well as the
environment, but not to the degree that I realize it now. It is hard to explain this, but I am going to
give it the old college try (as this is a new, emerging concept for me).
Sometimes when I enter a
room full of people, I can immediately cut the negative energy with a
knife. Even deeper than that, I can
become highly aware of when someone in said room is having an anxiety attack as
I begin to have a similar experience. This becomes quickly overwhelming to the
point I must leave the area. As a reiki practitioner,
I am a conduit of healing energy for both myself and others which necessitates
being grounded. Lately, I have been confused and out of sorts making
it hard to stay rooted on solid ground.
So, what does one do to resolve this issue?
I have written
extensively about my journey through the PTSD world and the modalities I have
used to stay balanced (acupuncture, chiropractic care, reiki, massage therapy,
exercise, nutritional support, yoga etc.).
A trusted confidante recently told me that to this point I have only
managed, and not emotionally healed from this injury. Reason being:
I am not allowing myself permission to truly feel my emotions because
the energy(spiritual) work/exploration that I do is blocking this aspect of
myself. How so?
Along the road to
becoming a holistic practitioner, my mind has been telling me that I should
develop this persona of a super-fantastic, well-grounded healer- devoid of, or
shielded from the emotions of the past (such as anger, fear, resentment and so
on). Otherwise, who would seek the
services of a person who becomes emotionally “forward” from time to time? When my mind is made up on something like
this, I usually go all in with what is presented to me (ALWAYS REMAIN
GROUNDED/SHIELD YOURSELF FROM TRIGGERS, TIM).
For example, the news outlets are big triggers for me, so what did I do? Well, for the past 6 months or so I avoided
watching or reading anything media related- therefore, I can stay grounded for
the people I work with. My stance is
that if I become unhinged, I will end up falling into the rabbit hole of rage
once again.
However, my trusted
confidante explained that I need to in a systematic approach, feel each thread of emotion, and then
decide what I want to do with it. This type of analysis will allow me, without
judgement, to sort through future triggering events and make the most appropriate
and peaceful resolution with respect to my feelings. Once I make this part of
the fabric of my being- my friend said the spiritual work will flourish. The
moral of the story for this healer is: Allow
myself to be human, experience all the emotions life throws my way- And, in the
face of adversity always have the courage to take the high road.
Speaking of those who
recently took the high road, a colleague and friend of mine who is from Canada
recently related such an event about her life.
Paramedic Natalie Harris from the Province of Ontario, has been writing
a blog about the trials and tribulations of her battles with depression and
PTSD- which is an incredible story. In
fact, this past January, Nat released a book titled Save My Life School that I highly recommend any current or future
first responder, their significant other or spouse- should read.
In her latest post titled
So What I Jerseyed a Girl in Walmart? - Nat
specifically makes the point of my blog post about working through emotions and
taking the high road when faced with a trigger from the past. I have provided
the link to her blog in both this paragraph and the right column of my
page. Thanks, Nat for inspiring me to
put the pen to paper on this topic.
As the universe always
has my back, I leave you with a new Zac Brown song titled Roots which is all about being grounded. Until next time-
Take care and be well,
Tim
